Rediscovering

Music. It's songs which can express how you feel. In high school it was how I could show my anger. I remember blasting Slipknot/Nightwish/H.I.M in my room after getting into arguments with my parents. Playing Neyo's So Sick or Brown Eyes by Destiney's Child after break ups. It's was a way to show someone how I felt without telling them how I felt. Music got me through tough times in HS. I lost that love though in Iowa, in college. Depression really hit me hard the 2nd semester. I stopped going to class, stopped caring that I was wasting money that wasn't mine, didn't give a crap about my appearance, and practically ignored my family for a while. Music was there for a while, to help me ignore the facts I didn't like, but even then it started to have less and less of an effect. Like a drug that is taken too often, you need more to feel that high. How do you do that with music though? So I stopped listening.

Only now am I trying to find that same love of music. It's tough. I've found that my tastes have changed somewhat. I find it hard to listen to the same things that I did before. No more Nightwish, Slipknot, The Rasmus, or any dark/heavy/death metal. Although, I am still loyal and able to stomach to a few bands like P.O.D, Matisyahu, Hard Fi, Metallica when they performed with the orchestra, etc. It seems I favor a more Mainstream/Indie vibe now, it's not the same as the euphoria I used to get. It's more muted. I guess I still haven't found music that I love. It's stuff I can tolerate. Not like the when I first discovered Audioslave. That was love at first play. Hopefully, I'll be able to find something like that again.

I guess like everything in life, it changes.


Some trip-hop to listen to. :]